I miss carried at 5 weeks in February. The whole process was a bit of a clusterf**k as I had been certain that I was pregnant despite the pee tests coming back negative, it wasn’t until my bleeding had begun that the doctors came back to us to confirm that the blood tests did show pregnancy.

So all the symptoms I felt were right, but up until after the loss we were being told over and over that “it’s not pregnancy it’s ‘something else’ we don’t know what but it’s not a baby and it’s probably something serious”

I cannot tell you how angry and betrayed I felt through the whole process. I was made to feel like I was crazy and was not given any support or comfort. ANYWAY I’m ranting.

It’s been a few months and my husband and I have been continuing to try and Lo and Behold I’m feeling the symptoms again. As in EXACTYLY. The nausea, headaches, dizzy ness, sudden onset of vivid dreams/insomnia, bleeding gums...

I feel like I’m going crazy again, I want to think that I’m right and we could possibly be pregnant but I also feel like maybe I felt one or two and now I’m forcing the rest of the symptoms on myself.

I don’t know what I’m looking for I just needed to get this off my chest, I don’t want to share in my friends circle because they knew about the miscarriage and the whole fuss around it and I don’t want them to roll their eyes and think I’m stupid when my period comes.

Has anyone experienced similar? Am I just stupid?