5 months postpartum and breastfeeding. only lost 5 pounds. that’s it.

i wear my maternity clothes still. i feel so disgusted in myself i could literally vomit. i hate my love handles that go around my whole torso. i literally look like a stretch mark ice cream cone.

i wanna cry, i’m so embarrassed. i weigh 245 and i just ache when i try to walk or exercise. i wanna give up because it hurts so bad. i WANT to change it just hurts like hell. i try to eat better but i ultimately give up because i’m a piece of shit.

just ranting. i’m sorry goodnight