I've come to the conclusion that I need to die. For everyone's sake. All I do is mess up and cause trouble. I don't even try to cause trouble. It just happens. I've never been able to finish anything, I'm always late, I have mental health issues that cost my family so much to deal with, and my mistakes often cost us too.

I'm the only person in my family that is this much of a fuck-up. Everyone else is able to have friends and be normal and happy. My mother is completely emotionally unavailable to me at this point. She's just had enough of my stupidity. My sister is far better off having no sister rather than me. I'm the worst role model she could ever have. Everything I do, I fail at, and I don't want her to end up like me. I have one friend to my name, and a guy I've been seeing for a few months, but I know they could have so much better if I wasn't in the way.

I've gotten help for my depression. That isn't the issue. With the fact that I can think more clearly on my medication, I can see that I'm just one of those people who is too stupid to survive, and should never have been born to begin with.

Please, I need some way to relieve the people around me. They'd all be so much better off if I was gone. I need advice on how to end this reign of failure once and for all.