Im just so sad

I know it’s all in Gods hands and his timing is best

But it just hurts so much

Every time AF shows I just sit and cry

I try so hard not to

But I want this so badly

I have friends that get abortions and still get blessed with multiple unwanted pregnancies

I know I shouldn’t be bitter

Maybe God doesn’t think I’ll be a good mum

Maybe he doesn’t think I’m a good person

Maybe I have to accept that God doesn’t want me to have a child

But he put this desire in my heart and now I don’t know why

This is the worst way to feel on Easter Sunday and I’m sorry Lord but I’m just soooo sad