I havnt had sex in 6months and ive been wanting sex but I’m not into touching myself or toys nun of that I like the real thing but idk if I’m crazy for waiting for the one person I really wanna do he was my first but it dint go as well but now I wanna sleep with him again but idk I want it to be the best so idk if I should tell him that I’m in that choking and aggressive thing like I feel that If I tell him what I desire it would make it awkward so do I just let him do me what he wants to tell him some desires and how