TW: suicide

On September 4th my friend of 5 years shot himself in the head and was hospitalized. He later died the same day around 7pm. When I found out that he had passed it felt like I was in a different dimension.. I stood up and everything was spinning, I felt like everything was echoing and everything was in slow motion. That night I cried more than I've ever cried in my life about how I wish I could've helped him or could've seen him more before he passed. It's been 7 months and I still have a feeling like everything's off nothing's the same without him here. I keep thinking about how I'll never see him or talk to him again. This is the most pain I've ever been through I want Tieran back. I got his graffiti tag tatted:

He's gone but he'll live on through me forever I promise you Tieran everything I do in life is for you. I love you and I miss you so much. Rest in peace Tieran Bourquin.