Non newborn adoption

Has anyone had experience with a later adoption? I had my daughter last July at 27 weeks, she’s now 9 months actual and 6 months adjusted. I’ve been having a really hard time with no support from family or her father. I’m exhausted and overwhelmed. I don’t want to hurt her and that’s where I see myself going. She’s crying nonstop and sometimes I just want to hit her and shake her.

I love her with all my heart and I’ve done a lot on my own to give her the best possible life that I can with where I am. That’s why I’m torn, she’s so wonderful but with the continuous mental drain that I’m under, something bad could happen.

Parenting wasn’t meant to do alone.