How to prepare myself to be a single mom?

J • Mama to one handsome little man💙

I’m 19. I’ve been with my “boyfriend” for 6 years (he’s 21). I recently found out I’m pregnant and out of anger he keeps telling me to have an abortion and it’s just been emotional and I’m only 4 weeks. He clearly doesn’t want my baby. No matter what no “man” should ever tell you to get rid of a life you both created and if so then he doesn’t deserve to be apart of something he didn’t want. How do I prepare myself to leave? How do I prepare myself to be a single mom at 19? I grew up in a broken household and I told myself I wouldn’t let the cycle repeat and here I am... all I do is cry. I thought he loved me.