Not Sure How to Feel

Sara

I was talking to this guy for 4-5 months and early on, he said the end goal was to be in a relationship with me. For the first few months, things were going really good but I noticed in the beginning of March, he was acting different. He completely stopped talking to me and tonight I decided to ask him what happened. He told me he’s been talking to someone one else for almost 2 months but he wasn’t sure how to tell me. I had a feeling that’s what happened but I didn’t mention it because I wanted him to say it and deep down, I wanted to believe I was just being crazy. I don’t know how to feel. I’m mad and I’m sad and I’m hurt. I don’t think it would be bad had he not said the things that he said or if he told me 2 months ago. I feel like I’m not good enough and I don’t know what to do. I don’t really have anyone to talk to because I feel like a complete idiot for thing that for once, a guy would care about me. I struggle with depression and anxiety and low self esteem and I feel like this made it all worse. I also have trust issues which he knew about and I let him in. I feel so so stupid.