Crying over wasted milk

My husband doesn't understand.

My 17 week old only gets breastmilk, primarilly from me, sometimes from a bottle if necessary. I'm NOT an over producer. I barely produce enough for him on a normal day, and have to stay up late for hours after his last feeding to pump around 3-4 oz for back up.

Today I fed him until 7:20 am, a good 40 minutes (plus) he was on me. I got ready and took my 6 yr old to school. I was home 45 minutes after his last feeding ended. Husband thought he looked hungry and took the only 4 oz bottle out of the fridge and tried to feed him; he didn't want it. He was tired, not hungry. Kudos to him for trying. But when I saw the bottle I was lost for words and almost cried. I composed myself and just decided that I would go to the gym and it could be used while I was gone. Except, I never made it to the gym. My ds was being super cranky and hubby was working. Later, I fed him and left to pick 6 yr old up from school. I came home to him feeding him 2 of the 4 oz. Okay fine. But 2 oz never got used and were trashed. His opinion is that I can always pump more :-/

I appreciate him trying to feed him, but he didn't need to use any of it. Having at least a few oz in the fridge/freezer means a little piece of freedom. I can go to the gym, take a nap, my older son can feed him in the car if necessary and we don't have to wait to go somewhere.

We are supposed to go out on Thursday night, I have to pump enough between now and then for the sitter to use while we are out, plus extra if I plan on drinking.

Vent over