Not having the father of my child around has had its ups and downs. This week is definitely a down. My parents were helping me put the crib together, which was a challenge, and it got emotional because I feel like these are all things he should be here to help me with. But I can’t force him to be a good man, or to be there to help me. It’s a weird mixture of anger/sadness/relief (he is toxic). Another thing is it can be tough to see all of the happy couples on here, and feeling so alone in my journey! Just had to vent a little.