My husband has been deployed almost a year now. He left when our son was only a month old. Ive really really struggled this whole deployment because it was our first child and we didn’t plan for it to happen like this. Ive been very angry from the start. This deployment wasn’t supposed to happen (it was a surprise to us), I didn’t have much help from friends or family, and I struggled with postpartum anxiety and maybe depression as well. I also started back to work full time and my son started daycare. We had so many horrible times. He was sick ALOT. I made multiple trips to hospitals, dozens of doctors visits. Missed work so much that i had to quit my job and find another. I took care of everything at our house, our finances, vehicles, etc. And on top of all of this i had a death in the family that really messed me up. This has literally been the hardest year of my life.

My husband is returning home in a few weeks and I hate to say it but I’m just angry. Im angry at the whole situation. Everything I’ve been through. What i had to endure. All the nights i spent crying alone just wishing my husband could help me. I’m really happy he’s coming home but I’m just so angry about the whole situation and i don’t know how we’re going to adjust back to normal life at this point. . .

Is it normal to feel this way? I don’t want to be angry at my husband or ruin our time together but i can’t get over my feelings and how upset i am. I know i can’t change what’s happened but it just feels so unfair. I don’t know.

Any advice is welcome