Tonight I wanna cry.

socks

So its PMS week already moody, my sister called me to tell me she had her baby. Which is awesome, but then she gets into this big story about how her ex has taken her other 2 kids away because the father told CPS that she smokes and is still smoking even though she's pregnant. So when she went to have her baby they test both her and her baby they both test pos. For weed. She said that they want to do a home inspection to make sure she will be in a heathly safe environment..then she informs me she literally has nothing for the baby. Not even a car seat to leave the hospital. Not clothes not bottles not a bed she said she herself only has an air mattress. I said well ill come take the baby for a month or so so that you can get everything together, CPS wont take the baby..I've been ttc for 4 years and have a small stock pile of baby stuff I could have no problem taken the baby. Then she informs me she doesn't want my help, instead shes going to MAKE her 74 year old grandma who still has nothing for the baby come get her baby shes going to make her grandmother take care of the baby until she can...why would u make an old women do this, ones that's on pills and cant remember what day it is. why wouldn't u want ur baby in a loving home safe, I felt like she was building me up to ask me for help only to slam the door in my face..I get it's her baby her choice, but she wouldn't be in the situation if she choose right to begin with and stopped smoking and actually got stuff for her baby. Smh shes still choosing wrong. I dont get why she gets 3 babies she doesn't take care of while I struggle to convince. Sorry I just needed to vent.