Identity crisis at 24??!!!!

I use to be a hard core goth girl, my husband at the time my boyfriend wasn't. He never liked my style but he loved me so he didn't care. After graduating and breaking up my style progressed, I have dreads, piercing, my clothes got more "edgy". My husband and I ended up getting back together a year later. We got married had or first son and he told me I had to change the way I dressed because I am a mother now, I gave away all my stuff, took my piercing out and dressed "normal " but now 4 years later i am having an identity crisis, I want to dress the way I use to. I want my dreads back, I want my boots back, I want my goth style back.

But I feel like I cant because I feel trapped I guess??? I dont know, I just want to feel like my old self