I’m always in a love triangle.?

So this is a long story. I miss my ex? My ex (let’s call him Sam) was my first love and my best friend since 8th grade, so almost 7 years. Throughout high school we were always extremely close and when we broke up we took a six month break from each other and then became best friends after that. I love him unconditionally and will always want him in my life.

So this is where it gets weird, my current boyfriend (we will call drew) and I have been dating for two years and I DO NOT DESERVE HIM. He is so great to me, he’s respectful, has all of the same beliefs and priorities that I do and we just get along really well. He has always been okay with Sam being in my life even tho we have a complicated relationship. Last summer Sam slept over with me and confused his love for me that he has always had and basically wanted me to get back together with him (even tho I’m dating drew). I obviously said no but there’s just this guy feeling in me and I constantly miss and feel sad about Sam. My boyfriend deals with it, and talks about all of my problems with me but I always feel bad if I feel sad about something with sam, just because there’s so much jealously there between them.

I know that’s really complicated and if you need any more context to help me just ask me a question. I just want to know what to do, I have this longing for sam but drew treats me so well.. idk!!