So my partner went out the other day to the city and came home at 5am and said he missed the last train home.

I was searching something up in his phone yesterday and saw searches for “body rub” and “exotic body rub” in the city. I thought I was over reacting and thought he would never do anything like that and thought he just wanted a back rub because he’s getting treatment for an injury and gets bad back pain (fucking stupid I know) but I asked him about it anyways.

He told me he was planning on getting a handjob because he was super horny but didn’t and cried about it.

He doesn’t think isn’t that big of a deal because he didn’t do anything.

But to me he searched up the place and went there with the intention of getting a sexual favour off of a prostitute.

Am I over reacting or what ???

We have a three month old baby so that makes things even more complicated.

He was telling me he would never do something like that to me and that’s why he didn’t follow through and I seriously never even thought he would do anything like this. Don’t get me wrong I’m happy he didn’t follow through but the fucking intention was still there and he went through the effort of going there.

I’m stuck on what to do, usually I would just break up with him but I love him so much and everything else in the relationship is fine and I’m thinking about my baby.

Now I just feel like I’m not good enough and I’m worthless like he has no respect for me.

What are your thoughts ? What do you think I should do and what would you do in this situation ???

Ty