Bad feeling (possible trigger)

*Possible trigger for maternal death below.*

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Ever since the start of my second trimester, I’ve had a strong feeling I won’t survive childbirth. I’m not scared, I just haven’t been able to see myself beyond this pregnancy. I still can’t, and it feels like the next 11 weeks will be a miserable eternity.

I can imagine my proud, almost 5-year-old being a wonderful big sister, and my husband with her and the new baby, but for whatever reason I’m not there, and that’s the only detail that’s remained the same this whole time.

Anyone else get this? Just me?