Heartbreak

Monday we had our first positive test. We were thrilled and couldn't wait to be parents. My period was supposed to be there the next day and it never showed. We were getting ready to tell out parents tonight that they were going to have a grandbaby. Now, it's just heartbreak. I took another test and the lines were faint unlike the last two days. I asked Hubbyif he thought so, I considered it, then went about my morning. I was at work, feeling terrible, and my underwear felt wet-like my period started and I was unprepared. I went and checked. Sure enough they were soaked with blood. My heart shattered as I realized I had a chemical pregnancy/miscarriage. I told my boss I needed to leave to deal with an emergency. She was understanding and offered the rest of the day off if I needed. I drove home in hysterics about what just happened. Hubby is trying to comfort me saying that as soon as the blood is done, we'll try again, women who suffer a miscarriage are more likely to have a healthy lasting pregnancy immediately after the loss, and other reassuring things. I love him and every he's doing to make it better, but I just can't right now. I'm feeling absolutely miserable and I have to pretend everything is fine for the next few days. I'm hoping that we get our "rainbow baby" next month...

EDIT: it was extremely hard to not break down in tears, especially when my mom kept bringing up babies and such before dinner, then they kept bringing up what it was like when we (hubby and I) were babies and our dads jokingly asked "where's our grandchild?" I didn't cry but it was impossibly difficult to keep it in. When we went to bed I put my face into the pillow and cried for a little while. I can't do this again....