I just can’t, I can’t take this anymore. I hate this feeling, this feeling of fear of loosing the fear of you leaving it just really tears me apart. Everything I say just makes this worse. I actually don’t blame you for wanting to leave, hell I would’ve done it a long time ago if I were you. But you always stuck around.. and now when you’ve finally had enough, I can’t really seem to let go. Because losing you would be like losing everything. My home, my one true love, the one person I actually feel genuinely happy with. Losing all that, would destroy me. I’m so close to just going. I don’t want to but I feel like I need to. Because even with you here I still stood on rock bottom. But you were there to lift me up. But with you gone, I just couldn’t.. it would be to painful. God I love you so much!