That feeling when....

Had a BO in Feb (worst experience of my life) and thought maybe , just MAYBE this would be our month. Started having sore boobs, mood swings, and mild cramping could be PMS or early pregnancy so I stayed hopeful. Then, I go to the RR and see light pink, stretchy CM. I know it could go both ways from this point, but after having issues conceiving and my loss with BO I’m at a witts end. I want to throw that bitch ass white towel in. I sat staring at the pink spotting after I wiped and immediately just wanted to cry. This shits EXHAUSTING