I think I’m pregnant.

freaking the fuck out because I think I may be pregnant 😭 I haven’t told anyone yet, not even my boyfriend, because I don’t want to seem paranoid. I’ve been moody lately, super hungry (I even broke my vegan diet after months because of cravings), sore boobs, tearful, etc. if I’m pregnant... I don’t know what I’ll do. I’m seventeen. I should have been more careful :( I have to wait seven days to take a test. I believe that a human is not developed until you can hear a heartbeat so I think I would get an abortion but you have to have parental permission in my state and my father would be so disappointed in me. we’re really close, I tell him everything. I feel like throwing up, I’m so nervous. I’m not in a place in my life where I can have a child. I have medical issues. I’m not in school because of said issues. my family doesn’t have a lot of money. my boyfriends parents are more rigid than anyone I’ve met thus far. they aren’t even kind people. I would be loved and accepted by my family and shunned by his, even though I KNOW my boyfriend would want to help because we talked about all this before doing anything. a child is a big responsibility and I’m just not mentally, physically, or emotionally ready to become a parent. I don’t know what to do I feel completely broken at this MAYBE. I swear if I’m not pregnant, I don’t know if I’ll have sex again till I’m older. I just need a hug :(

update: I’m going to go get the test.

I got it.

Just took it.

test one (May 2nd): not pregnant!!!! but this is a couple days before my period so I’m gonna take another if I miss my period.