I’m currently pregnant, and I can’t help but being so sad, and down all of the time. I’ve always wanted to be a mother, and the thought of being a mom has always brought me so much joy, I couldn’t wait for it... until I ended up accidentally pregnant, with a guy I had only been dating for a few months. I don’t love this man at all. I am actually DISGUSTED by the thought of him now. I find him so repulsive, not only his looks, but his personality. It sounds very harsh, but I can’t help feeling these things. I feel so guilty for it, because he’s amazing, and I have no doubt he’ll be an amazing father, but I constantly wish the baby belonged to someone else, even if it was a stranger, or someone who wouldn’t be involved. Then I find myself feeling even more sadness, and remorse, because I know my baby deserves a man as good as him for a father, but it makes me sick to my stomach to think that I’ll have to share my baby with him.