I feel like a horrible person and idk what to do.

There’s this guy that likes me and idk how I feel about him and he plans to ask me out either tonight or tomorrow but there’s a couple problems and idk what to do.

1.) he lives in Minnesota(I live in Ohio) so my first bf would be long distance which I don’t think is a good idea for my first boyfriend. Where as he has had a serious girlfriend, in person, not long distance before, so i wouldn’t know how relationships function or how to kiss or how to do anything without being extremely awkward and making a fool out of myself.

2.) i kind of just like him as a friend and nothing more for right now. The thought of dating him actually makes me kind of uncomfortable

3.) I’m not supposed to know that he’s gonna ask me to be his girlfriend... And when he would ask me out we’d be on the phone with another person, we’d be on discord Bc if I wasn’t supposed to know; him and my friend would be on acting like we’re just casually playing Minecraft like we always do.. and I’d already feel really bad telling him that stuff on the phone let alone when there’s another person. I ended up talking to him about it... but I still feel horrible especially Bc I wasn’t even supposed to know.