I keep having mixed emotions everyday. One day I’m excited to be trying to have a baby & the next I’m depressed sad & emotional. I keep looking down the timeline & be seeing a lot of BFP & wonder why it’s not happening for me but I just realized the other day that it just might don’t never happen & I’m at peace with the fact of my realization. I think god I even got the chance to experience motherhood period because its so many people that never got the chance to be a mom & I-am forever grateful god chose me to be one of those mothers. Thank you god for everything. For the things you did & didn’t allow to happen. Just know that god knows best. We might not never understand why but just enjoy what you already have because tomorrow is not promised. For all the many people that cry & be depressed or anything over not getting pregnant, I know it’s hard to go everyday & the thing you want most is not happening but we are not just making ourselves miserable but the people around us so live, love & laugh because the minute, hour, or day can be taken away in the blank of an eye. With that being said don’t let this one thing steal your happiness from everything else. Iam at peace be at peace with it too.