So ever since I can remember I've never been motivated to do anything. Showering even requires more than it should. It's just difficult getting through life. I have a ton of homework and I just can't seem to get to it. I don't know how to explain it. My mood is usually neutral but can change at the flip of a dime by anything. I want to gain more control in my life ( I know I can do it. I have moments of clarity but I can't make them last long) and do better. So many people don't seem to have to find motivation and hurts to know that I'll probably never be like them.