Can’t believe I’m actually saying this but..

I’m just angry! Sexually frustrated. I really want the D but GOOD D. More and more often I find myself fantasizing about sex with my past guy. I’m currently in a long-term relationship. He has NEVER brought me to climax in the way that my past parter(s) have. I’ve had 10/10 oral 10/10 sex and my bf is 6/10 oral and 4/10 sex🙄. And yes I do talk him about what I like and don’t like, he knows but he just isn’t GOOD at pleasing me. He is very much a giver when it comes to oral and is completely selfish when it comes to sex. And I just realized this is just a big long rant because my 😾 is ANGRY! I don’t want to cheat on my man but I don’t want to have sex with him. It just disappoints me in the end and makes him feel bad that he failed to please me? What do we do? What do I do?