On Saturday I took this test and to my surprise it came up positive after all the months of trying. I immediately showed my husband because I was in disbelief. He could see the line as well so we patiently waited for my period day to pass. I took another test on Sunday and I still had my pretty second line but it wasn’t getting any darker. And again on Monday it was the same dull line. Today is the day after i was to start. This morning I took a test and there was no second line. I thought maybe it’s a bad test. After four more tests and two cheapie tests with no line I felt cheated. I had made so many plans in my head already that it hurt to see it was gone just like that. While I was at work the cramps started and everything in my stomach felt heavy. I went home to change my pants because it had happened so quickly I didn’t have time to feel it come on. We haven’t told anyone we are trying so while my husband feels the loss he doesn’t understand my extreme sadness. It’s my job to carry this to term and I failed at it. I cried a few times today. After my last cry I prayed and felt more at peace. Even though I didn’t stay pregnant at least I know I can get pregnant. And even though I’m cramping that means things are working to make a new home for our next try.

I just have to be patient for my pink lines .