Mourning your birth plan

I read an article before I gave birth about when something unexpected happens during childbirth you have to mour it. I didn't understand it until my baby was here. I had to have an emergency c section so not the plan at all. I was unconscious and my husband wasn't able to be in the room so I feel like we both got deprived the opportunity to watch our little one come into this world. Everyone ended up being healthy and I know it was what saved his life but I hate that when people talk about child birth it's this beautiful miracle and mine was the scariest day of my life. My baby is my world and every time I see him I know how blessed I am, I just wish I could find joy when I think of his birth..