Anyone else who had a kid and is now super paranoid?

I was sexually assaulted by my father(he’s in jail for life) as a child, and several other men in my life while growing up.

I’m now pregnant, and I’m so scared for my baby.

I keep worrying about who’s going to watch her, and how I can keep her safe while I’m at work.

This has been on my mind since I went on maternity leave. My mom can’t watch her, she’s too busy with work though she wants to, my grandma is sick and I wouldn’t want her to since it’d be too much on her.

The baby’s dad isn’t with me and doesn’t want to be apart of her life.

I’m so scared, and paranoid. I don’t want her scarred and hurt for the rest of her life like I was. 😞