22 and a virgin

I want to lose my virginity because I’m tired of being a virgin still I guess

Sex scares me but so intriguing. I’m obsessed and intrigued by sexuality in general but the idea of having something get inside me down there freaks me out.

I can’t masturbate. It doesn’t do anything. Fingering myself doesn’t do anything but make me feel uncomfortable.

I’ve ALMOST had sex before. I was nervous and as his penis was about to get inside me (the tip), it hurt like hell that I told him to stop. It was embarrassing. I’m really tight.

I wonder what it actually feels like. Help?