I realised throughout my pregnancy I’ve gotten 2 pieces of good news.

✖️12 weeks scan they cancelled my appointment and I wasn’t able to rebook a new one for 2 months which was useless.

✖️20 week scan we found a heart defect

✔️ Glucose tolerance test I passed!!!

✖️Growth scan we found out that he has IUGR

✔️ Amniocentesis came back normal!!!

Of course I didn’t have a lot of struggles no bleeding or cramping no miscarriage, they can typically find the heart beat. But a lot of actual events have resulted in bad news rather than excitement.

I broke down in tears today when I got my amnio results because I was so expecting another abnormal result but it was normal.

My precious boy doesn’t have this extra obstacle and while I still would have loved him either way I am overjoyed.

I am still stressed about so much this pregnancy but I want to try and enjoy it again. As much as I can.

Im going to smile when I feel him kick rather than constantly tracking it with a feeling of relief, not joy.

I’m going to pack my hospital bag not out of stress that I could be induced any moment, but with excitement that I’ll be using this bag when I meet my baby boy.

I’m going to focus on meeting my baby boy and what I do get to do rather than what I will be missing out of.