Just plain terrified...

J

I've given birth 3 times. Twice I was induced and the last time my after broke and labor began on own. My first I had an episiotomy and 2nd degree tear and he was delivered with the help of forceps. My 2nd I also tore I dont remember how bad though but he was delivered with the help of vacuum. My 3rd no tearing or intervention of any kinda (he did break my tailbone though). However with all 3 I had NO PAIN MEDS at all.... here I am just 6 weeks away from bringing my daughter into the world and I want to give her the same benefit of a natural as possible birth but I'm scared to death! I remember the pain! I remember thinking I can't do this and pushing through anyway... but ladies... I just dont know if I have it in me again!!! I feel like if I dont I'm failing her some how... idk anything other than I'm scared shitless!!!