First Appt

So I had my first OB appt today at 7 +1 weeks and I’m feeling pretty confident. I will say I was a little discouraged by the fact that my doctor won’t allow me to have a natural birth because I’ve had 2 c sections already and in such short time. My 2 year old was born in March 2017 and my second baby was born September 2018, but she passed away shortly after birth. I guess I was hoping I could get that experience but I never will. 😢 is that bad of me? I feel ungrateful.