Hi I'm really not looking for judgement.

I'm 31 and have been with my new boyfriend for a total of nearly 3 months. He is amazing and truly u do see myself spending my life with him.

Out of utter shock I discovered I'm pregnant. I'm now 5 weeks 3 days. Despite using the pill.

All I have ever wanted is a family and a loving man. But this feels to soon. I am currently undertaking my masters I work 10 hour shifts at a busy hospital which I often stay late at (I can't change this as they are paying for my masters). Financially I am not in a great position.

He works away 5 days of the week and when away is over 2 hours from me and I also have 2 dogs.

He was amazing on telling him this. But the reality settle in for the two of us. We have had no time together. And are so far apart. This is not going to change fir another 18 months at least and I will be left solo parenting during the week. This baby would have huge implications on my career and masters which has a financial penalty.

Despite all this I'm so scared of abortion. This could be my only chance. I'm also petrified of having it and continuing with all the opinion ions of others and all the above. I don't want to a solo mum because I don't have any family support.

I'm filled with complete sadness. Devastation. I just wanted to post to try and let it out because I feel so alone.