Body image

Hello everyone , so this have been very controversial but I need some help. So last year I had an abortion. I lost my bf a year before that my parents lost their job and my grandpa dies. I just got done with the first year of college and that was rough too. I’m 5’2 and currently 165 pounds. A healthy weight for me is 115-125. I’m very unhappy with the way I look. And every days oh you look fine. But I don’t feel that way. When my clothes don’t fit right and it hurts. I just am not happy and I want some advice as to how to feel more confident about my body while I start to try and lose-weight