Tonight I'm just sad

Tonight feels like I've been hit by a wave of sadness. On Saturday I began bleeding and had what is suspected to be a miscarriage. After the initial shock and sadness I began to accept it and stayed thankful for the boy I already have. The bleeding only lasted 5 days and for some stupid reason I kept remaining hopeful. Yesterday and today I just started becoming so irritable. I'm feeling so many mixed emotions tonight and I'm just so sad. I took a pregnancy test and it was negative so I'm sure that's the end of it although it wasn't FMU. I don't have anyone I want to talk about this so I feel like I just need to write it down in the hopes it will help.