Almost 2 years of trying with 3 losses. A feeling of emptiness and failure comes in waves. I know one day very soon will be my turn. It's soooooo hard to see beautiful bumps wishing it was me. Most days I'm fine & others I cry alone with such a heavy heart. My Love is supportive but has no idea how emotional I still am because I hide it so well. Being positive doesn't always work with the emotions being felt. Walking past the baby aisle & people all around announcing but myself. Please universe hear my cries and the longing of my heart for our rainbow. It's almost becoming too much. Please let me carry our first precious bundle of love together to term.