Hubby and I really want kids. We aren’t trying, as in, not using ovulation tests or setting times to bd and all that. We just aren’t using protection and bd frequently, letting God work his will as he sees. I am constantly praying for my future children and already feel like I know what I’m having first, a boy, and I already know his name. (Not saying, that’s between me, God, and my husband until he is born.)

Well, recently, my grandpa, who I am somewhat close to, had to go to the hospital. He has pneumonia and his health has be declining in the last few years. We don’t have much hope for him living past 2020 and I had always imagined him holding at least my firstborn. Upon hearing the news of him going to the hospital, I started praying heavily to have a baby soon, in the hopes that my grandpa would be around for my first baby. Is this a weird main reason to have/want a baby?

Sadly my af just arrived... so I know it’s not happening this month...