I feel so bad about this

Haley • TTC baby #2 going on 2.5 years ❤️

My husband and I have been ttc #2 for 2.5 years now with no luck. After a year of straight BFN we went to a specialist they had to remove my right tube in February. I balled for a straight month l because the doctor said she preformed this surgery on another patient and they were pregnant the next month after surgery and we currently on round 3 of letrozole after post surgery and still nothing... but I don’t feel sad or want to cry anymore seeing the BFN anymore... is this normal???? I still want another baby badly and will do whatever it takes to have another one but I don’t feel pain anymore or enough sadness to cry over the BFN like I use too.