dry humping?? masturbating??? no sex???

so i looked up “how to dry hump ” and i have 3 pillows shits not working for me and i’ve tired like thinking about this boy i like and i feel literally nothing and it’s tiring squatting over pillows my ankles hurt ..so now i know when i do have sex i will not be on the top lol. Does anyone have any tips on this type of stuff..??? i dont like fingering myself or using shower heads either