Is there actually any hope for me at all?

Firstly I never been suicidal until recently cause my anxiety is so bad,in flirt with the idea of the afterlife I tried every anti-anxiety medication there is,tried therapy and other stuff but nothing works,I don't really have many friends and I'm super clingy with those I'm xlose to cause I'm terrified of being alone for long periods of time,I got too many demons to even begin to count,something more is up then just anxeity,I'm really easily startled and paranoid,have I possibly gone mad and ran out of options?