I feel overwhelmed in life right now. I’ve had 3 panic attacks this week. I’ve had suicidal thoughts twice. No I didn’t attempt anything.

The first panic attack I had started bc my sister had recently told my parents that our uncle touched her inappropriately when she was 10 (now 16). I felt like my mom didn’t believe her bc that’s her brother. But shouldn’t your daughter be more important? I was so mad but also sad for my sister and upset that my mom always chooses her other family instead of her kids. My chest hurt and i wanted to yell but i couldn’t it hurt to even breathe.

And I think abt why it bothers me so much and how it’s so important for me that my sister is believed bc he almost tried the same with me. i was already 16 att, when my sister was 10 so I knew to distance myself from him. But why did I not think he’d just go to her next??? Why did I not see that?! I blame myself. I feel sick abt it.