Sorry it’s long but oh my god!!!!

So a little back story. I was sexually assaulted when I was 6-9 by my cousin. It made me very anxious and my social anxiety kept me from leaving my house alone. I started looking for “love” in all the wrong places, and started having sex at 15. I was inexperienced and tense when I had sex so it wasn’t the relaxing pleasurable experience it was supposed to be. I rarely did forplay and oral made me uncomfortable because of my anxiety (what if I smell, what if I taste bad, what if I didn’t shower good enough, ect.) to say the least sex never felt good it was honestly the equivalent to holding hands for me. Sometimes it even hurt. It stayed like this for FIVE years. I thought there was something wrong with me. The guys I slept with said the girls they were with almost always orgasmed. Finally I went to the doctor with my current boyfriend and she told us I needed foreplay and more clit stimulation. We tried that but it was as though my clit was too sensitive and it was almost like it was ticklish (curious to see if anyone else felt that way?) months and months later (10 to be exact) we finally learned more about my body and what I need. I grew more comfortable with him since we’ve been together over 2 years and have a baby together and I let myself relax more during sex. Last night he was giving me a back rub and I knew what was coming next (this is part of my annoyingly long sex routine to try to get me to finish lol) next he moved on to sucking my nipples and kissing me in between my thighs before SLOWLY stimulating my clit. He put his finger inside me. Again really slow. And let my body get used to it then he was able to move a little faster and so on. (We learned that my clit needs to be slowly stimulated and it feels good instead of ticklish) we have been trying this for weeks but last night there was just something different. After an hour of oral YES LADIES! AN HOUR! My body clenched and the most amazing thing I have ever felt came over me. Finally after being intimate for the last 5 years of my life. Someone took the time my body needed and I ORGASMED!!!! I did not know what I was missing!!! I never knew something could feel this intense! It lasted for 30 seconds and my body immediately collapsed on the bed. But of course he works out of town and had to leave for 4 days in the morning. Time to learn how to do it to myself because this girl can not wait 4 more days to feel that again!

I do have a question. My boyfriend said after the first orgasm the next ones aren’t quite that intense. (Still good obviously). He said that at least that’s what happened to him. Is this true? Or does it feel this good every time!

I’m so happy right now. I burst into tears after we both finished because I honestly thought I was broken and I was just gonna have lame sex my whole life

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