I have been feeling depressed for a while I haven't really talked to anyone one about it I perk up when I'm with my family I dont want them to worry. We been ttc for 4 years and nothing I been gaining weight pushing 210 I have never been this big i hate my body i feel ugly. My husband is the most sweetest person I have ever met he loves my body he always saying why am I so soft he loves grabbing me every where I hate that he loves what I hate the most my body. I just want to change my birthday is next month and i want to be happy..