Hey Everyone,

This post may be a trigger for some so fair warning.

Right now I’m sitting on my couch. I’m in disbelief. My heart hurts and I feel like my chest is caving in. I don’t know how much more I can take.

***I found out I was pregnant on April 29th 2019 with my second baby.**

-I was so excited, nervous but excited I have my almost one year old son *Julien Anthony* who was born June 1st 2018. I was happy to give my son a best friend. I ended up having the start of my miscarriage on Mother’s day. My second one! My heart broke!

I also found out that my dad had to go for testing Because his liver was bad! (From drinking) He’s made mistakes but he’s always been a good dad. He deserves more than this. & I wish I could fix him!

** We just found out his cancer is inoperable and there’s nothing we can do.

**the cancer has spread & he’s growing tumors. So on this beautiful day I want to be happy have fun,but I’m still losing my baby and when I visit my dad who’s always been super strong and independent., lay on the couch exhausted after working a 3 1/2 hour work day and had to come home. I watch him get sharp pains in his stomach and cringe but since I’m there he try’s to be strong. I watch him try to play with his first and only grandson and is to prideful to ask for help when lifting him. This pain hurts my dads only 50 years old! And his life will be cut so short. My son will never remember his grandpa and I’ll forever have to tell him stories to have him understand the wonderful man my dad is/was! I wish I new how to get this heavy pain out of my chest. 🥺 any prayers would be greatly appreciated

I needed to vent somewhere since my dad don’t want any family or friends to know besides me and a few others.

Thanks for reading 😞 please pray for a miracle