Thinking about it to much

Why does that have to be a thing. Why does thinking about how bad you want to become pregnant prevent you from actually getting pregnant. When I talk to friends about it they even say it. I just wish it was easier. When I was 16 I would have been pregnant 10 times now. But 24 and one baby later and life... man it’s not freaking easy! I just want my BFP and I feel like I’m going crazy. I’m currently 4 days late, in limbo. Two negatives..and gonna test tomorrow. I just wish AF would come so I can go on to this next cycle. If not a BFP WOULD BE GREAT!! ✨🌈😅😩