Hello..so a few of may have read my past posts referring to my boyfriend Steven..Well.. we had that one major break up last August..but now we are in yet another break..This time, I decided it. Reason being, things just honestly weren’t healthy. I needed to take a step back to get some clarity. My mental health has been going downhill, and I recently have been diagnosed with depression, Borderline Personality Disorder, and ADHD..all make sense now for issues in my life, including my relationship..

Thing is, before the break, I tried to explain things to him. About everything. Because of him dealing with depression and ADHD also, I figured he would try to understand..Well..he didn’t..blamed my behavior on other things such as medicine that has helped me tremendously.

Well after a week or so, and then going to our therapist together, she agreed with me and explained to him that this break would be beneficial for us, as things have already gone bad.. Well I figured with a licensed professional to tell him, he would be a little understanding and agree.. WRONG... He told me this break was stupid and that he doesn’t know if he could wait around for me.. I told him we could try to be friends after he cooled down..so the past two weeks that’s what we tried doing..Well our hangouts started off good but then he would cross the line by flirting and trying to touch me..Things I didn’t think we’re okay during this time.. Well, last night during our league practice, he officially ended our hangouts by leaving me alone (he was my ride) because he was trying to get in my face and I told him to get away or I would kick him in the balls.. Well today we talked and he apologized for his behavior and I did to mine..but he then texted me later in the day, saying he wants to wait a week to see if we both should actually break up or not.. He then said if we got back together there would be some rules.. (text down below)

First of all..We were struggling for a good 4 months now.. We barely saw eachother every day because he would make an excuse to not come over.. Whenever we did hang out.. we barely talked because he just wanted to sleep or watch YouTube..We barely had sex except maybe once a week and sometimes every two weeks.. We talked over the phone, because I knew that message was influenced by his mom..And surely enough..it was. The whole goddamn message is what his mom said.. The issue here..is that he always included his mom into our relationship. First break up was because of her. So now I’m just done..because he believes we are separated because of what she said, instead of what I have told him many times even before this happened...

Guys...should I wait and see what happens with him, or should I just completely walk away? We’ve been together for a year and 7 months now..we’ve had some good times but idk..I feel like he won’t understand or listen to me..ever!