I miss my baby

I had an abortion yesterday, I'm 22. The father and I were both excited and then I became so miserable and scared so I had an abortion and now all I can think about is my perfect little baby and how I was so wrong and I should've just stuck through it. I miss the nausea, I miss the sleepless nights, I miss everything because it meant my baby and I were connected. I don't know how to deal with the grief. Some one please help me feel like I'm not an awful person. I just want to be with my baby again.