It doesn't seem to stop hurting...

C

Today, 3 months since my emergency ectopic rupture surgery, I went to the zoo with some friends. One of them just found out she is about 6 weeks pregnant. I passed all these pregnant moms, and families. These siblings playing together. I have my little girl, but I had been pregnant with her sibling. And I lost that. I wanted that family, that baby, more than anything. We decided to start trying again. But it's not the same. I feel like my body failed me. And I keep feeling like we won't be able to have that family that I keep seeing, keep dreaming of. But I keep praying and keep holding tight to my little girl and my husband.