So this evening, my husband said something hilarious and I laughed and responded back saying “you’re so silly”... as soon as I said it, I had instant fear and I started apologising... I am just so used to doing this because of my previous marriage where my ex-husband always abused me even at the slightest thing. I don’t know what happened but I started to panic... my husband replied back saying “of cos I know I am and that’s why you love me”. I froze. This was when I came back to myself and realised that he isn’t my ex-husband! He then hugged me and said that I should never be fearful and that he would always protect me. I started crying. It actually feels good to be happy... I always used to think that I didn’t deserve to be happy and I got used to the violence by my ex-husband.

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